And i feel like i’m living the ordinary way.
The common thing everyone would do at their period of time.

Entah ya, saya pikir banyak orang yang ngerasa terjebak dalam kerjaannya. Mimpinya sih pengen live their dream job, tapi ujung-ujungnya stuck in their job. Emang udah paling bisa perusahaan ngasih iming-iming fasilitas keren, gaji gede, dan jaminan kehidupan enak lainnya. Sebenernya hal-hal macam itu yang bikin banyak orang stuck in their job. Mungkin. 

Apa yang saya jalani sekarang bener-bener common routine yang dijalani sama banyak orang.
Pergi pagi, pulang malam, dan begitu setiap hari.

 

As anak baru, saya masih dalam rangka beradaptasi sama ritme kerja, lingkungan kerja, sama business proses yang akan terus saya hadapi, dan semuanya, termasuk berbagai macam jenis tekanan setiap harinya. In order to find enjoynya saya dan nyamannya kerja.


I’m trying to enjoy it. I do it harder, everyday. Sampe akhirnya saya menyadari kalo saya punya atasan yang actually sangat care dan sangat punya capability untuk mem-build up saya dengan super great great treatment.

Hello baby, membuat bijih besi sampai jadi besi yang siap pakai dan kuat itu nggak gampang. Sebagus-bagusnya material, kalo nggak di treatment dengan rangkaian proses yang sangat panjang dan *ehem* menyakitkan, nggak bakal jadi produk yang bisa dipake tuh. Thats why, in this case, my life, the heartbeat, is being more fragile than usual.

Challenges me. It is not me if i'm not challenge you back~

Because what i got to realize now, is that..
i ain't died!


I swear i’m trying, harder, everyday. Assuming that work day is a holiday, the office is like a land of party, and the co-workers are like the member of hobby group. I’m trying to do it differently. Just because i dont want to make it common. Because i hate common thing.

As soon as possible, you should find your own passion. Link your heart with your job. If it linked, you’re both are compatible. But if it doesnt work, i suggest you to find the right thing to link it.


If you’re both linked, but the world challenges you to catch your big dream, i dont know, maybe you got to do. The world has more than 1 billion person to be chosen. Just maybe~


i dont know, maybe its curhat or i'm in the case on build up my self or whatever.
it is holiday actually, so happy holiday <3>

Try Me!

by on November 05, 2013
And i feel like i’m living the ordinary way. The common thing everyone would do at their period of time. Entah ya, saya pikir banyak ...
Time flieeesssss..
I guess i’ve been sleeping too long. Too much long.

Yap.
Sekarang nggak lagi tentang kuliah yang padat, himpunan, dosen yang sering telat masuk, atau praktikan yang aneh-aneh. Tarik lagi ke depan, ini adalah masa dimana saya mulai berkutat dengan pekerjaan, atasan, rekan kerja, dan *ehem* gaji.

Entah akan mulai darimana. Terlalu lama nggak nulis sedikit bikin saya canggung dan kaku untuk memulainya lagi.

Ninggalin comfort zone bukan perkara gampang buat mahluk-mahluk seperti saya yang selama ini terbiasa di dalamnya. My comfort zone is not kinda ‘mudah dalam segala sesuatunya’, tapi lebih kayak selalu dinaungi sama keluarga, orang-orang terdekat, dan selalu punya topangan untuk berbagai macam hal nggak enak yang terjadi setiap hari. But now everything changes. I have to build my own comfort zone. Saya berada di outer space. Dan saya harus bangun comfort zone yang baru.
It is hard to leave the comfort zone. But i think, comfort zone kills. If its not now, maybe someday.
Leaving the comfort zone might be a little bit bite you. It makes pain. But that pain will make you change.

I dont know. And here me now,





i wish Cileungsi will not changes me to be an alien, as they usually do to another creatures~

Time Flies

by on October 27, 2013
Time flieeesssss.. I guess i’ve been sleeping too long. Too much long. Yap. Sekarang nggak lagi tentang kuliah yang padat, himpuna...
it’s a looong looongg trip. Fiiuh. Time flies, huh!

Jadi sarjana nggak semudah yang dibayangkan. dan nggak ada perjuangan yang berakhir.
Bukan berakhir ternyata; naik level.

Setelah berbulan-bulan ngerasain dibanting-banting sama TA, akhirnya masa banting-bantingan itu selesai. Setelahnya, *deep breath* nggak ada masa-masa dimana kasur empuk menunggu untuk ditiduri. Life becomes a monster.

Apa yang saya usahakan adalah menampilkan pemandangan terbaik saat wisuda buat Bapak & Ibu. Dan wooohooo! dora lend me her monkey, and i’m like ‘berhasil berhasil .. hore!’
Hari itu semuanya kerasa cetar badai membahana. But after that day gone, miley cyrus is back on my playlist *now playing: The Climb ~ Miley Cyrus*.

Kalo dulu paling nggak suka ngantri, nggak suka berduyun-duyun, nggak suka jadi bagian dari keramaian, nggak mau bersusah-susah untuk ‘rebutan’ sesuatu, sekarang beda cerita. Saya punya kewajiban baru untuk belajar menyukai apa yang dulu-dulu nggak disukai. Karena hanya akan ada 2 kemungkinan saat saya-kita-kamu masuk ke angkasa luar, temenan sama alien atau dimakan alien. 

Dan posisi saya sekarang nggak lagi ada di row D-5, L-10, atau K-19. Saya adalah salah satu  dari yang ada dilayar. Saya adalah peran yang -bisa jadi- lagi dikejer-kejer alien atau berusaha temenan sama alien tapi dicuekin mulu.
One day, you got to leave your comfort zone. Get into the outer space and spend your time there. One day, you’ll be the artist, not the audience anymore.

Yaaah.. apapun.
Setelah A beres bukan berarti segalanya ikut beres. Beresnya A adalah awal dimulainya B dan seterusnya. Hidup nggak akan dengan mudah ngebiarin manusia untuk berhenti berjuang dan belajar.
But anyway, your life is a journey, not a race.
Saya sempet berpikir bahwa saya HARUS SELALU JADI. But buddy, your life is a journey, not a race. Prinsipnya nggak harus selalu begitu. Just do your best, let God do the rest. Hal itu yang sekarang berasa soooo meee. HARUS SELALU mengusahakan yang terbaik, selanjutnya biarkan Tuhan yang bertindak. Kita nggak tau lebih banyak. hanya sekedar apa yang ada di depan mata. kita bahkan nggak tau apa yang bisa jadi ada di belakang kita.

I’m not trying to tell you that it’s gonna be hard. But i suggest you to treat yourself right.
The outer space might be full of alien, monster, a black big old creature who wanna catch you anytime. Pain makes people change. But the thing about pain, it demands to be felt. You –it might best to be ‘i’- just have to do struggle. And try again.
Always do your 100%, fighting when it needed, praying, and smiling for every single thing you’ve faced. Because life is a beautiful struggle, and so on you.

Dear you,
Do you ever think about those who is waiting for your coming?
Have you ever think how bad it is when somebody broke your wishing away?
Have you ever felt how your mood turns down and everything seems bad?

Sekiranya nggak bisa atau nggak sempet atau peluang jadinya kecil, jangan bilang bisa atau lebih parah, jangan nawarin.
Sekiranya masih lama atau masih jauh atau masih belum tau kapan terjadinya, jangan bilang “sebentar lagi”.
Kasian yang ngarepin.

What people know is just you broke it.
And when you do this repeatedly, they will ignore you and throw your words to the trash can. All you have to know that they’re tired of your drama.
This is the worse thing ever. People cant do this for you forever. They wont trust you anymore. The worse after all, maybe someday they’ll go for searching a better promise.

How was be awaited felt?
I forgot. 

How was be awaited felt?

by on February 03, 2013
Dear you, Do you ever think about those who is waiting for your coming? Have you ever think how bad it is when somebody broke your wis...

it wont be easy but it wont be as hard as everyone thinks. Relationship is kinda make you two should be in the same things, not all things, but almost.

When he just want A and you stay B and nobody move on, the trouble begins.
That’s you both turn. Talk to your self that “Its my job to understand it, fix it, and save it”
life wont guarantee for your regrets.

..Sometimes, we need to be hurt in order to grow, maybe that’s the lesson, your love -or each of you- is growing up. 
However good or bad a situation is, it will change. Forgive everyone everything.

some kind of relationship

by on January 24, 2013
it wont be easy but it wont be as hard as everyone thinks. Relationship is kinda make you two should be in the same things, not all things...

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